I'm not a perfect woman
My cloths doesn't always stay in place
I pill a lot of things and i'm pretty clumsy

But when i think about it
and take a step back
i remember how amazing my life truly is
and that maybe i like being IMPERFECT !

**As u waste your breath complaining about life, someone out there is breathing their last. Appreciate what you have. BE THANKFUL and stop complaining. Live more, complain less...Have more smiles, less stress** Alhamdulillah

I AM

I might not be someone's first choice...but i am a great choice (HAHA)

I may not be rich, but I am valuable

I don't pretend to be someone i am not...I'm good at being me

I might not be proud of someone of the things I've done in the past....but I am proud of who I am today

I may not be perfect but i don't need to be

TAKE ME AS I AM

ADEK

'adek'..................itu aku

Nothing

Tak ada apa-apa nak share pun. Biasa jer

...tahun depan qayyum dah masuk pra sekolah tau, tak tahu lah mcmana ragam manja nya nanti, Qayyum...Qayyum... 

kerja...aku masih di sini, tempat biasa, kerusi yg sama, meja masih bersepah....otak tetap ku perahkan sekuat mungkin agar gaji yg diberikan selaras dgn sumbangan aku ni.

aku.... ? macam ni lah, tengah diet utk mengimbangkan berat badan dgn kaki aku ini.

... masih lagi merindui ayah bonda yg dah lama pergi...tak pernah aku bosan dengan ingatan yg ada dan semakin bertambah angka usia ni, makin dalam pulak rindu pada arwah. Setiap malam aku selalu berdoa agar mereka hadir dalam mimpi-mimpi aku. Tak sempat pun balas jasa mereka...hanya doa saban waktu utk mereka, moga sampai lah hendaknya

And I'm tired of having this miserable feeling. Aku tinggalkan entri kali ni dgn kerusi fav. arwah ayah. Oh God....i miss him so much

Awalludin Ma'rifatullah

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AKU DAN SYUKUR

Assalamualaikum.... 

Tuan Ilham....Kakak aku...yang aku sayang (dan semestinya aku tahu dia memang sayang kat aku...hahaha). 24/2/11 pkl 10.00 mlm abang aku called 'adek...kak hae dlm ICU Ampang Puteri tu, Abg Mat royak teruk jugok la' (ayat yg penuh dengan sifat ke abang'an, kononnya ayat tu buat aku cool la). Aku cakap 'ok, datang sekarang' (waktu tu aku tengah cari durian...terus aku lupa apa rasa durian masa tu...abg mat x akan call kalau kak hae x teruk). Aku balik rumah, ambik apa2 yg patut....zasssssss ke ampang puteri. Tengah jalan anak buah aku called 'ayah kato mamahae stabil doh ' (what ????? kak hae x sedar kor? God.....airmata aku laju giler...lagi laju dari kereta aku yg tengah memecut tu'). KAK HAE !!!!!!!!

Sampai Ampang Puteri, kena tunggu dulu sbb x boleh masuk ramai2. Dup dap dup dap.....'bila nok jumpo kak hae ni....cool cool, aku target x nak nangis sikit pun nanti...nanti kak hae sedih !!' Ok....next !! oh god my turn. Aku tengok jer kakak aku, macam2 mesin ada kat dia...ni yang aku lemah ni. First .....u look outstanding dear walaupun sakit sbb make-up tu masih disitu. Hehehehe (sempat lagi check). GOD !!! aku cengeng !!! (bodoh airmata ni...tadi dah janji kan). Kakak aku stop breathing for 20min...tu yg doctor cakap arr...ya Allah....i dont know what to say. SYUKUR !! Saat tu, maknanya memang INDAH... sangat INDAH. Thanx Allah..............kak hae jangan sakit lagi !!!

Dalam masa2 kecemasan tu, ada 2 benda bodoh yang aku buat :
1) Aku call telephone rumah aku kat kampung 09-7257085. Dalam otak aku....nak call ayah suruh datang. Ya Allah....bodoh bodoh bodoh !!!!!!...bangun weh, ayah dah x de okey !!

2) Aku yang bertanggung jawab gatal talipon kakak aku kat Delhi. Dah la orang tu jauh....meraung sorang2 kak pah kat sana. Sorry !!! Nasib baik kak pah ditemani 'bibik ke 4' nya yg begitu memahami (shoulder to cry on...kikikiki. Bui bonus weh kor bibik tu, extra kerja).

Well...apa yang dah jadi...dah pun terjadi. Itu aturan Allah....Syukur alhamdulillah. Pada yang baca entry bersawang aku yang tak berkualiti ni. JANGAN BANYAK MENGELUH, syukur dengan apa yang ada, niat utk terus maju itu baik tapi jangan sampai keluhan diberi dan yang pasti sayangi apa yang sekeliling kita termasuk benda yang kita x nampak. Bukan hantu, iblis jin tapi udara, oksigen, bau-bauan, rasa + nikmat. APA AKU MELALUT ni !!

AKU SAYANG FAMILI AKU...AKU SAYANG BOSS AKU, AKU SAYANG KAWAN-KAWAN AKU, AKU SAYANG KERETA AKU, AKU SAYANG AHMAD DHANI (aik...ni entry lain, SENGAL)

'Awaluddin Ma'rifatullah'

DARI KEKASIH UTK KEKASIH

Dear Dad & Mum.........

Spend time with you...it was a special time, a time that i will MISS as i face my day without them. BUT i remain thankful that i had an oppurtunity to give my dad and mum the greatest give of all : 'LOVE VITAMINS'

Dear Dad & Mum.....
I miss u telling me to be good at everything i do (i'm trying....)

I remember the pains that began to hurt you when u have a stroke (i'm crying)

I remember you are in that hospital bed with my sisters/brothers and me constantly at your side (i'm praying)

I miss your smiles seeing your old buddies there (i'm smilling)

I miss you on my graduations, my weeding and when i got a bad fever (i'm suffering)

BUT now both of u are up there...i believe that u keeping an eyes on me...saying 'YES, THATs MY GIRL'

Dad & Mum.....'Thank You'. Thank you for the launghter, for the good times that we share. Thanks for always listening, for trying to be fair. Thank for your comfort, when things are going bad. Thank you for the shoulder to cry on when i'm sad. Ayahanda + Bonda.....adek RINDU !!!!!!!

- Ayah : 'u always make me feel i belong..so gently yet so strong and u give me guidance when i ask' ...but now u're not here with me to help in times of trouble'

- Bonda : ' I love u more than u know, u have my total respect. If I had my choice of mothers....you'd be the one i'd select. 13 years spend time with u is not enough mum.'

HAPPY MOTHERs + DADs DAY to both of u.........THE BEST THING ABOUT ME IS U
alfatihah ..............

Awaluddin Ma'rifatullah